040 So Much to Say
Dec. 23rd, 2014 11:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
autumnmuseI feel very overwhelmed. I haven't written because my dad doesn't want anyone knowing, but I have to write or Ill explode. Dad wasn't feeling well at all since Thursday. He's been having crazy shivers, a horrible pressure in his stomach, and just overall sense of horrible-ness (Nausea, etc). Seeing him so broken makes me feel so helpless and pissed off.
Well, it only got worse, to the point that Monday morning we called my dad's oncologist. We got my dad's nurse, Sheila, who I actually really like. She told us that even though it might not be what it could be (bowl perforation), she was letting it be up to us whether to take dad to the ER so we could be sure because his symptoms were also symptoms of the bowl perforation.
Of course, we didn't want to take any chances. Thing is, we're all up here in the Berkshires (which thankfully is only an hour and a half away from home/hospital). My dad didn't want all of us to go. He didn't want to ruin the trip for everyone so he basically had me and my brother DTP stay behind, while he, my mom, NTP and Trisha went to the hospital yesterday morning and got there about Noon.
I have hated that decision this entire time. Being here, pretending to have a good time, is the opposite of what we're doing. We're stressing out, on edge, and wishing all kinds of things. We've been calling and texting the entire time, but I hate it. I want to be there with him. Never mind that the hospital doesn't have space for all of us to spend the night with him ... it's not the point.
Initial tests said it wasn't the bowl perforation, but the doctor found his gallbladder quite inflamed which considering everything else going on with dad, can be a major issue. They did an MRI earlier tonight (6ish) to see what might be causing it to be inflamed. We're hoping its just some build up they can give medication for. My brother NTP said they might know something tonight, but probably tomorrow.
DTP and I agreed that if my dad isn't released in the AM with the all-okay we're packing up and heading home. I wanted to this morning but NTP said that would just my dad feel worse, as if he's ruined out week. I hate it, but he's right. My dad will take it to mean something is really bad and that is why we're rushing home. It's not even that ... It's the week of Christmas, we should all be together.
I can't wait for this horrible year to be over. I want my dad to feel better. I want him to stop looking like he is at death's door (it was so bad these last few days, he looked so sick, broken and done ... I think my tear ducts have no more tears). I want to stop feeling so damn helpless.
DTP and I have basically been trying to keep from going nuts by working on a 750 piece puzzle, and when that gets tiring on the eyes, I've been reading. I finished my first non-school book this year--sad, I know. It was actually a really great read, and kept me distracted for a little bit. I took time actually reviewing it too. Usually I just give books stars and move on, but I wrote up a review (which I'll post under a cut.
Otherwise, we've been sitting around just waiting for news. I hope he gets released in the morning with good news (as good as this kind of stuff can give). I just want to go home, honestly. I just want to pack everything and go.
Snow Like Ashes by Sara Raasch
My rating: 4 of 5 stars
I wish I could give half stars because this would be 4.5 stars. It was a truly enjoyable read (read it all in one day). This is the first debut novel by Sara, and considering that, she is truly talented.
Sara weaves a beautiful tale, in a world run by the seasons, with Spring on a serious power trip to overrun all of the other seasons. Having already wiped out Winter, enslaved its people and on the hunt for its Prince, Spring is planning the ultimate coup. Too bad that the night Winter fell, 25 Winterians escaped.
Our Heroine Meira is raised side by side with the royal prince...the Heir to the Winter throne and its magic. Their small group is led by Sir, and they live out in the Reina Plaines, living nomadic lives the let 16 years, chasing after the medallion that will restore Winters magic and the King's rightful place.
Meira is tired of running rations and food missions and when the opportunity arises for her to go after half to the necklace herself, her best friend and King, Mather feigns a sprained ankle, which lets Meira go on the mission herself. A mission that almost gets her captured.
The story unravels quickly after she's able to retrieve the the first half, the group of now 10 seek out help to retrieve the other half from Angra, the man responsible for the displacement and enslavement of their people, the ruler of Spring. When they seek out the help of Cordellans, she is shocked to find she's been handed over like a mule to marry the Cordellan's prince Theron.. the only way their king will help out Meira and her band of refugees.
This book amazed me with how the scenes came to life. The characters were ones you could fall in love with, and I did. They were real, fought real emotional turmoils, and the fight scenes were believe and absolutely kick ass. Meira is not just a girl, she's a warrior who will do anything for those she loves. The landscapes are breathtaking, and the way that Sara writes her descriptive landscapes, had me transported to a fantasy world so real, I felt like i was there.
So why is it only getting 4.5 stars instead of 5? Well I figured out the secret from the very beginning. It's one of the more typical ones seen in novels, but she still manages to do it very well, and even though I knew it was coming (the big reveal), I did still enjoy the journey it took to get there.
And secondly, Meira gets a little too "why me ... I can't do this ... Im a nobody..." type of character near the end. Here she is all book kicking mad ass, and suddenly she's this weak whiny girl ... thankful it doesn't last more than two or so chapters, and she's back to her kick ass self, but that's the type of stuff you typically see in the beginning of a book, not near the end. Still, it wasn't super annoying like some authors make their characters, but it did irk me a tad, and had me skipping a couple of paragraphs here and there.
Overall, for a first novel, it was beautiful written and I can't wait for the second installment.
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Well, it only got worse, to the point that Monday morning we called my dad's oncologist. We got my dad's nurse, Sheila, who I actually really like. She told us that even though it might not be what it could be (bowl perforation), she was letting it be up to us whether to take dad to the ER so we could be sure because his symptoms were also symptoms of the bowl perforation.
Of course, we didn't want to take any chances. Thing is, we're all up here in the Berkshires (which thankfully is only an hour and a half away from home/hospital). My dad didn't want all of us to go. He didn't want to ruin the trip for everyone so he basically had me and my brother DTP stay behind, while he, my mom, NTP and Trisha went to the hospital yesterday morning and got there about Noon.
I have hated that decision this entire time. Being here, pretending to have a good time, is the opposite of what we're doing. We're stressing out, on edge, and wishing all kinds of things. We've been calling and texting the entire time, but I hate it. I want to be there with him. Never mind that the hospital doesn't have space for all of us to spend the night with him ... it's not the point.
Initial tests said it wasn't the bowl perforation, but the doctor found his gallbladder quite inflamed which considering everything else going on with dad, can be a major issue. They did an MRI earlier tonight (6ish) to see what might be causing it to be inflamed. We're hoping its just some build up they can give medication for. My brother NTP said they might know something tonight, but probably tomorrow.
DTP and I agreed that if my dad isn't released in the AM with the all-okay we're packing up and heading home. I wanted to this morning but NTP said that would just my dad feel worse, as if he's ruined out week. I hate it, but he's right. My dad will take it to mean something is really bad and that is why we're rushing home. It's not even that ... It's the week of Christmas, we should all be together.
I can't wait for this horrible year to be over. I want my dad to feel better. I want him to stop looking like he is at death's door (it was so bad these last few days, he looked so sick, broken and done ... I think my tear ducts have no more tears). I want to stop feeling so damn helpless.
DTP and I have basically been trying to keep from going nuts by working on a 750 piece puzzle, and when that gets tiring on the eyes, I've been reading. I finished my first non-school book this year--sad, I know. It was actually a really great read, and kept me distracted for a little bit. I took time actually reviewing it too. Usually I just give books stars and move on, but I wrote up a review (which I'll post under a cut.
Otherwise, we've been sitting around just waiting for news. I hope he gets released in the morning with good news (as good as this kind of stuff can give). I just want to go home, honestly. I just want to pack everything and go.
Snow Like Ashes by Sara RaaschMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
I wish I could give half stars because this would be 4.5 stars. It was a truly enjoyable read (read it all in one day). This is the first debut novel by Sara, and considering that, she is truly talented.
Sara weaves a beautiful tale, in a world run by the seasons, with Spring on a serious power trip to overrun all of the other seasons. Having already wiped out Winter, enslaved its people and on the hunt for its Prince, Spring is planning the ultimate coup. Too bad that the night Winter fell, 25 Winterians escaped.
Our Heroine Meira is raised side by side with the royal prince...the Heir to the Winter throne and its magic. Their small group is led by Sir, and they live out in the Reina Plaines, living nomadic lives the let 16 years, chasing after the medallion that will restore Winters magic and the King's rightful place.
Meira is tired of running rations and food missions and when the opportunity arises for her to go after half to the necklace herself, her best friend and King, Mather feigns a sprained ankle, which lets Meira go on the mission herself. A mission that almost gets her captured.
The story unravels quickly after she's able to retrieve the the first half, the group of now 10 seek out help to retrieve the other half from Angra, the man responsible for the displacement and enslavement of their people, the ruler of Spring. When they seek out the help of Cordellans, she is shocked to find she's been handed over like a mule to marry the Cordellan's prince Theron.. the only way their king will help out Meira and her band of refugees.
This book amazed me with how the scenes came to life. The characters were ones you could fall in love with, and I did. They were real, fought real emotional turmoils, and the fight scenes were believe and absolutely kick ass. Meira is not just a girl, she's a warrior who will do anything for those she loves. The landscapes are breathtaking, and the way that Sara writes her descriptive landscapes, had me transported to a fantasy world so real, I felt like i was there.
So why is it only getting 4.5 stars instead of 5? Well I figured out the secret from the very beginning. It's one of the more typical ones seen in novels, but she still manages to do it very well, and even though I knew it was coming (the big reveal), I did still enjoy the journey it took to get there.
And secondly, Meira gets a little too "why me ... I can't do this ... Im a nobody..." type of character near the end. Here she is all book kicking mad ass, and suddenly she's this weak whiny girl ... thankful it doesn't last more than two or so chapters, and she's back to her kick ass self, but that's the type of stuff you typically see in the beginning of a book, not near the end. Still, it wasn't super annoying like some authors make their characters, but it did irk me a tad, and had me skipping a couple of paragraphs here and there.
Overall, for a first novel, it was beautiful written and I can't wait for the second installment.
View all my reviews
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Date: 2014-12-24 08:35 pm (UTC)P.S. - sounds like a lovely book, it's great when you can read something and feel transported to another world.